Hey guys how are you doing? seems like millions of years since i wrotte my last entry here. I have been online all this days just that not expending too much time on DA. You can find me easily on my Facebook www.facebook.com/IzzyBTK
or in my twitter @IzzyBTK. Why do i give you those links, cos there are many people inDA i dont want to miss contact with and i often check out those account in my phone or in my laptop
I´m gonna be honest, the last days i haven´t any wish on logging in DA. I dont know, i dont feel like i´m having fun anymore, so seldom i log in and post something or answer some comments. I also haven´t made ay new drawing (as the ones i use to do) Since my Simone Simons´s one. That doesnt means i´m leaving this, is just that finally i will take deviant art as a hobby and not as a priority in my life. I still draw, but simple stuffs, some sketches. Funny simple cute and free sketches, forgetting about all the rules of making a traditional artwork with pastels, watercolors, charcoal, graphite anything.
I love to draw, is one of the only expressions that i find to express a deep feeling or a vision, a costume or something i like. But i dont have the time and the creativity at the moment for doing complex drawings.
But i dont feel confortable enough for sharing those drawings :/ they are personal -.-! a little of improvisation and some original characters so is not gonna be easy to undersand.
In other stuffs i´m planning to leave this country as soon as posible and leave to study in USA (yei cheers on me). Is not a mistery t nobody hat USA is not my favorite country, but being honest and realist is the best choice i have. Sounds crazy and my mother is not happy at all with the idea, but whatever, i dont pretend to stand in this place anymore.
Talking you about other aspect of my life... my emotional life is a disaster. The man of my life still fuck off my mind and dont leave me think clearly. My family is a natural disaster but that is also not a mistery cos i wrotte many journals explaining that.
I want to leave everything behind, like having a new life, letting people, dreams expectations, skills, thoughts behind. I dont want to conserve almost anything. I wish i culd live a new life, different people different points of view and different wishes. A different place, enviroment, i don tknow. Start all over again.
I wish there was a reset button in the life :/ but with a different home.
I´m pointless. I feel like i dont have anything to fight for, and that´s getting me bored. This place makes me feel like this :/ i dont have to much to aspire for and like an already written and programed curse of life.
I´m reading too much philosophy... But is nice to feel that something you think has a reason to be and others had feel the same way.
I´m not leaving DA, just saying that i wont be in this place as i used to cos i dont feel anymore that need. I think maybe one day that wish will come back but now i´m a free soul, i wont do something i dont like too. And DA is not the only stuffs on that situation... Latelly i really dont want to do anything.